Your vote matters. It is still the first step by which officials gain their positions of responsibility and power. That's why it's worth billons of dollars to dark money groups seeking to install corporate tools.
Cynicism has eroded participation in elections, but so has anxiety based in paranoia. No one wants to vote for someone who turns out to be bad. Not just controversial. Outright bad.
As we see now, a certain core of voters will try to redefine badness as goodness through various filters. Others will just go quiet, still content to see how it plays out in their favor. But elections are not decided on the faithful. They're decided on the undecided.
Some people don't vote because they think it's pointless. Some of the ones who say that actually don't vote because they don't understand the issues, but believe that appearing cynical is cooler than appearing ignorant. I guess that's true, but either way you have handed off your fate to the people who do pick a side.
I didn't vote for a long time after I was old enough, because I wasn't intelligent and focused enough to study the candidates and the issues. In my family, we talked about policies and principles, but I seldom heard one of my parents tie the policies to a party. Because my father was a Coast Guard officer, he took his responsibility to present as nonpartisan very seriously. He took all of his responsibilities very seriously.
Observing the Republican Party from Nixon to Reagan, I had a strong inclination to favor Democrats, but I wasn't sure enough to place a bet. Then when I finally did, on Bill Clinton, he dropped the universal health care promise when corporate money growled, and then acted like a horny teenager in his second term, seriously handicapping Al Gore's stature going into the 2000 election. Thanks, Bill. His presidency was a net good, but not by as much as it could have been if he had had more courage and zipper control.
Bush 43 did nothing to shake my observation that the Democrats presented the less worse option, with strong potential actually to do good eventually. And the Republican Party since then has simply spiraled downward into a criminal syndicate in league with white supremacists and the Russian mob. However, the price of gas and groceries, blah blah blah, and boys who would be girls, oh my. Not to mention the undercurrent of racism in the depressing percentage of people who wouldn't actually initiate a lynching, but wouldn't do anything to stop one, either.
Political violence has always been with us, particularly in matters of race and labor relations. Domestic violence becomes political in its expression that women need to stay in their place and let their men do the talking. And violence scares most people. It scares more people than will admit to it. It keeps people from joining public protests. It keeps bystanders from interfering when they see it happening to someone else. Law enforcement uses the threat of it to intimidate witnesses. Criminals do the same thing. These forces aligned to do violence to each other live in that world. They express themselves only in that language. It's their medium of exchange. It's one more thing to fear: the violence of uncontrolled society versus the violence of over-controlling law enforcement.
Into this time of high-stakes decision making steps the paranoid voter, wondering if they'll have to answer for the spectacular failure of their champion. In walks the persnickety voter who doesn't want to listen to a woman's voice or annoying laugh for four years, who falls back on sexist tropes to justify voting for an obvious unrepentant criminal traitor to the nation, backed by religious bigots. Who makes a bad choice and digs in his heels -- or her heels, to please her man. We're tired of being embarrassed and let down. We want to believe that we could amass enough candidates to vote in a government that will change laws to control the bribery and violent coercion that have dug in and fortified themselves over a couple of centuries with only brief interruptions. Those interruptions were the template for actual improvements, but those lights need to be tended and defended against the powers of greed and class structure that seek to perpetuate the power of wealth as privilege without responsibility.
To get there, we need a bunch of paranoid people to take a risk. It's a lot to ask, and we have a very short time to figure out how to present the request.
